My Depressive Month
Winter, to me, is one long wait. And in Sweden, it feels especially long. Of course, you get used to it when you live there, and you do your best to keep your spirits up.
December is okay – you have Christmas and New Year to look forward to. January usually brings some snow, which brightens things up a bit, and you keep going. But then March arrives…
Just when everyone else starts to feel hopeful about spring, that’s when my “down period” begins.
The years I’ve lived in Hungary, I’ve mostly skipped this phase. Spring comes much earlier there, and it makes a big difference. But this year, winter has been unusually long and cold, and the other day I caught myself slipping into those dark thoughts again. Feeling tired, unmotivated… like everything is just a bit too much.
And, as so often, food becomes my comfort – which my body doesn’t really appreciate. It’s very “efficient” and stores everything it can… just in case of harder times 😉
Does this sound familiar?
You decide: Today I’m going to the stable. Today something is going to happen!
Your horse hasn’t been in work for a while because of the weather, but at least the yard isn’t an ice rink anymore.
But the moment you arrive… it starts raining.
And your horse? Of course, it has just enjoyed a full mud bath.
Some of your enthusiasm disappears right there.
And when you pick up a hoof – your horse has lost a shoe.
At that point, your motivation drops to zero.
Instead, you muck out, sort the feed, and head back into the warmth of the kitchen.
Later that night, you lie there thinking about everything you had planned… that didn’t get done.
Again.
“Well, it’s not like spring is coming anytime soon,” you tell yourself.
But suddenly – one day – it’s there.
And you’re not quite ready.
Imagine if you had just done a little at a time.
Small steps, here and there.
So that both you and your horse were ready for that first, wonderful ride in the forest… when the birds start singing again.
What if someone could give you back that energy and good mood you need to make it happen?
I know all of this.
So it’s probably time for me to have a session with myself again.
And if this feels familiar to you – reach out.
I have the tools 💛
